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I really don't know what I am going to do with my life.

For some time, I wanted to be a mathematician, but situation in Iran guided me forcedfully to engineering. Although I didn't go for any applicational science that is the basic in engineering. I unconciousely insisted on theoretical aspects of engineering, along with some philosophical/religous questions, so I continued my education. Right now, when I look back into my life, I feel more and more that it's not what satisfies me. It's scary.

Recently, I was reading a book about classical social theory and how it developed. The more I read the life of the socialogists in the 17, 18, 19 centuries, the less I believed in academic and formal education. We have some new samples too, Bill Gates and the Founders of Google didn't get what they had to get from the school.

Life is really complex, and I don't think that I can never answer such question that what is best to do with life. Sometimes it's better not to think, just enjoy. Sometimes I rech to a point that life doesn't mean anything to me and there is no value to continue it. It sounds a bit scary but relaxing.